comfort song: Helpless Love by Yoon Sang Hyun

tune and seemingly vague lyrics soothe the blissful breaking out of feelings which register to me as pathetic and disappointing.

I love this song. It sings to the tune of what I feel even though I don't know a thing about the lyrics. :)

HER :)

" to win her back"

everytime I hear this, bells start ringing good sounds in my ear and a feeling just exclaims "aww. how sweet"

I don't know where I am coming from in saying this.
Something just tells me those things matter and I just exclaim to myself, "lucky her"

and then think of a million things while drowning in comfort songs, hoping to find some solace and a good feeling of being really loved, beyond the three words.

:)

SHOULD i SETTLE?

"as with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it"

how can I blame the world when I feel so bad about one person and that person just ignored it?

should I ignore him forever too?
hmmmm.

got me thinking.
You know, I won't stick with someone who constantly makes me feel alone and just reassures me with words that prove to be empty and shallow.

the cycle of forgiveness sucks.
its gotta end at some point.

Etude House Yogurt Wash off Pack

cute packaging right?

I read a lot of good reviews about this product and I went ahead and bought it.

Comes in 4 cute packs, each with a different fruit extract included.

This is a wash off pack, like a mask that you put in your face but It doesn't get tight.

let it stay for 10 minutes and more before you wash it off :)

one pack is good for two faces. 

this is a generous serving.

:)

Once you open the pack, this good smell comes out, almost as good as food.

I don't think this is edible though :)

Tried the Kiwi first and after that, I was amazed at how soft, radiant and moisturized my face looked like after I washed it.

I don't know but some of my white heads cleared off a bit after the use of this :)

Kinda sticky and hard to rinse but if you wash it well then there is no problem on that.

I would definitely buy one again.

Haven't tried the raspberry and apple yet :)

Use once a week :)

Recommended.

price: php 289.00

@Etude House Baguio :)

happy birthday Paola! :) 11/09/11

I turned 22 last November 09, 2011 and since I don't fancy the age increase, I do fancy the festivity even though I did not have much drive to plan my birthday celebration. The day was special though (it always is, i mean duh!). Greetings, as I have noticed tend to get fewer from when you were still in school nonetheless, a lot of people remembered my day anyway and for that, I am super and beyond grateful. Thanks for the love :)

so here is how it went. Let us have a picture story :)

an early birthday gift from dear Tita Mila :)

Birthday Lunch courtesy of Mama. see how the newspapers prevented us from spillage. Greenwich delivery was at its worst this time. Coke spilled, lasagna has super dry pasta and fries sauce dripped all the way down to the fries.

Lunch shared with Rijel, Dean and Baron. I'm the only girl.haha :)

Dean, busy with something.haha :)

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well, after that, I took some birthday bath (?) and we went off with plans of going to a spa(did not happen) and having food trip.

Originally, we were supposed to try this Thai Restaurant near Botanical Garden but sadly, it was no longer OPEN or was it just that we cannot see it? invisible? ;p

so then our adventure went to

BLISS CAFE @ HOTEL ELIZABETH.

Following pictures @ Bliss Cafe Baguio, Hotel Elizabeth :)

Fine dining vegetarian restaurant. 

the Cafe is located inside Hotel Elizabeth.

When we went in, we were welcomed by the charming atmosphere and the owner, Mr. Jim Ward who was very nice and warm :)

Inside you'll be surrounded by a collection of Asian inspired books, decor, ornaments and peaceful music. Truly a wonder to the senses. Rijel even said that he feels that he went out of Baguio. like an 'out-of-Baguio experience' haha :)

this is powerful :)

the wall of wonder on our right ;)

Rijel  goofing around.

finally, the FOOD!

Vegetarian gastronomy

winners: fruit shake and crepe!!

(forgive me for not being able to recall the exact names)

yummy salad with vinaigrette dressing :)

the best milky apple shake (well it tasted milky for us) :)

Veggie carbonara with cheese toast on the side

sumptuous and really cheesy 

cheese panini/sandwich (forgot the real name)

insatiable crepe! delight in every mouthful! :)

writing about our experience at Bliss and finally getting the bill. Kinda hefty but worth it. Rijel found it in his heart to leave a tip, something I never saw him do yet until this time. haha ;p

Happy Birthday to me.

off to SM to buy wine and have another birthday meal (w/c I was supposed to co-prepare) at home :)

incense. that little Chinese Tradition :)

rushed but still nifty birthday dinner prepared for me with LOVE :)

thank you Family. I love you :)

cheesy lasagna :)

my cake. the perfect blueberry cheesecake! :)

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indeed a healthy birthday. I may not have gone out with my friends like I usually do but I had so much fun and I am grateful for my family and Rijel, Dean and Baron who spent this day with me :)
of course to God who blessed this day!
thankful for another year of existence!

for all those who called, messaged, tweeted and facebooked greetings, thanks, you made it all complete :)

As for the gifts, they're only for me to enjoy.haha ;p

love!

Thanksgiving :)

I live in the Philippines and though our country has been colonized be westerners long before, Thanksgiving is not as celebrated here. I know thanksgiving is one of the biggest holidays in the US and eversince I came into consciousness about it, most especially now, I am in so much awe that I am writing about it.

A time to be thankful for life and everything in it :) such a wonderful reason to be festive and be considered as a holiday! :)

Filipinos, being religious as most are, are thankful everyday for what they have. They may not be as vocal about it but I know in the million prayers sent to heaven every second, almost all of them contains a note or more of gratitude for big things and small ones alike:)

Thanksgiving this year was bigger for me-- the holiday I mean.
My boss asked me "are you going to have off this thanksgiving?" and I thought hard "what thanksgiving?" and then I realized. I heard more and more thanksgiving notes from friends and family in the US and I don't know if it is just me but I think the holiday is slowly inching it's way here in dear PI! :)

I appreciate small notes of what people are thankful about from huge ones to things I have absolutely no knowledge of. It is just a wonder how people pause, reflect and celebrate the people and things that made life a lot more meaningful for them. Who are we anyway without the things we are most grateful of? :)

As for me, the list could go on if I will write it all down. I am amazed to think that I have a lot to be thankful of despite constantly feeling that I have less and lacked a lot compared to others, heck I even felt so empty for a long time. (though I know I could whip up a lot to be thankful about even if I was clanging empty). Life gives you the irony that has long been present. It is not that our minds just trick us but maybe it is so exaggerated at times how we think that we have nothing when in fact we already have a lot. Fallacious as it may seem or close to the truth as it maybe, people do not get contented because the superficial and the new always gets to us. It is during those times that we are reminded, that we begin analyzing deeply what we have in our lives. Most of us are still incomplete, always wanting something more, something new, something changed and it will never stop. It is just a matter of pausing in between those moments and remembering the good things and how for a fraction of time, they made us almost reach cloud 9 :)

I feel lost and incomplete now. consistently confused, disappointed and frustrated. It is like I cannot get a move on with my life because of not knowing what I want and what to do with my future. Still, I am thankful I am alive and I get to spend more time with the people that I love. Heck, I know that in the end of it all, they will be the one who will matter the most anyway. I also need to fight for my future though. I need to make my parents proud. I need to redeem myself to myself and I need to trust more on God's plans :) CAirus!! (?)

finally, I am thankful for LIFE. for everything in it most specially God who created and gave everything. To my most beloved family. Mama, Papa, Paul. Relatives who have been so good and generous.Tita Elsie, Tita Mila, Tito Romeo and the rest. To special people and special friends who made me love and appreciate myself more than I could ask for, who were there when I needed someone to crash on and be myself more with. To friends from ups and downs. To laughter, love, food and sharing. For the sun and the wind and nature. for healing and better days. For Spencer who brought my love for dogs when I hated them so much. For technology and good samaritans. For mentors who guide without letting you down. For second and nth chances. for pillows and beds, for clothes and communication, for special moments and unforgettable ones. For medicines, cures, discoveries and music. For english, chinese, tagalog, words and sentences. For loyalty and faith. for strength and guidance. for spontaneity. for water, for creativity and color. for sight, feelings and senses. for things that I could have out of impulse. For things I know are too expensive but I have them anyway. for koreanovelas and movies that chase our hearts out ribcages and for children who embody purity, love and God's kingdom of pure joy and bliss, for being here at this moment right now where I have all my loved ones with me. Long life and good health for them, protection too.

Cheers to finding answers and having a better future for me and for my loved ones and for all people around the world. Cheers to positivity and negativity combined.
for everything in between and for everything unmentioned, lessons learned and stronger people.. A MILLION THANKS! :)

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