who is who? ...yet again

It has been a really long time. Fact is I have been away from this blog because for quite a long time (aforementioned) from the last post up until a few hours ago, I haven't felt the need or want to write. About anything? Well yes, about anything.

Actually, this was not how I originally wrote an introduction. For the first time, Im using my phone to blog. I got a message, opened it and when I went back, voila! I was staring at a blank space where my typed out thoughts used to be. haha.

So for starters, I was typing about why I write. I initially quoted it as a fact thatss not to be proud of but being that it is what it is, I cant pretty much deny or let it slip to my mind locker again. Ok. so first, I write out of the motivation I get after reading a book and second, I write due to the need to let out a strong emotion that I can't directly talk about with somebody.

In line with what I was blabbing earlier, part of the reason why I was absent here for so long is that, when I needed to, I had someone to talk to and someone who listens. Now, its like Im writing because the person who used to listen, can't. He can't listen and the only way he would know about this sort is with this post. If by chance and/or choice, he stumbles upon this. haha :) (It only felt right to end this paragraph with a "haha")

What I really wanted to talk about is short. I just wanted to say that, for ages, I felt again what I felt before. It dawned on me naturally that I was a little amazed, bemused even, as I realized it. I also wasn't expecting to define the feeling with a saying that I made years and years and years ago, in reference to a dfferent person.


"Who is who in one's heart at every moment of happiness spent apart?"

After typing that saying out, I completely lost all my words. I guess it was the only thing I wanted to get out. The moment I did, I just felt that I knew I had more to say, but I forgot them already. I suddenly became more aware of my heavy head and wary eyes.  Sort  of like adrenaline. haha.

This goes without denying what else do I feel right now. I feel hurt, sad, let down and insecure. Such feelings just make me want to leave. Hello defense mechanisms. Its been a long time too since you made me do things this way. haha. Now I realize that I still long for a kind of affection that I wanted before. It never really left me.  I guess its the way I often get frustrated with it that I keep wanting it still.

Chase me unconditionally? each and everytime? whatever situation?

I won't bother to say please. Its often very good and touching when a person does something not because you asked him to but because he did it with his own will even without saying.

It would really be great to exclaim proudly "yeah, the best part was he did what I wanted even without telling"

its just pure.

So often, I expect this way, so often, I get disappointed. Most of the times, people dont think  the same way. So often, a same  understanding isn't present.  But then out of those times, a glorious moment you weren't expecting comes and it brings you so much joy that without any words or actions, he as if read your mind, knew your heart best and came with the exact thing or method you were just thinking of.

well. dreamy. Its time to sleep now. I think I might have to keep mum and distance a little. Its one f those kinds of pain that really hurt deep down , you Dont do what you usualky do and the pain is sustaining enough for you to just stay away in silence.

one day

One day is not enough and yet being that it is not enough, you begin to realize that it means a lot.

For people who only have a day off their full-time job, chaos reigns over the precious mind, making it go crazy while juggling and fitting other errands with the opportunity to rest, relax and spend time with the people you love.

other things that could not be done due to time constraints on any other work day usually fill up that one day off you should supposedly allot for rest-- one day where you supposedly should be stress-free.

Lack of rest ultimately leads  you to drag yourself around making deadlines, completing pending tasks and while it does not immediately take its toll, it consumes you bit by difficult bit.

I am afraid of dragging myself around tasks again. I want to enjoy the work that I do. I don't want to continue working while frowning at the idea that tomorrow is another work day. I mean if people had enough rest, their mindset about tomorrow's job should at least be a little more positive. Why should people kill themselves in order to survive anyway.

For what ultimate reason do we work and find money anyway?
Living life is expensive and most people usually work more than half of their lives to enjoy a very short period of time.

i guess its just me experiencing what real life has to offer.
That for ordinary people like us, working and finding better opportunities are among those that make our world go round.

#hopingforabettermindset
#Godpleaseguideandhelpus
#weshouldmakemostofthelifewehavewiththepeopleandthingswelovethemost.

worrisome

Knowing that my parents or loved ones aren't that physically well takes a lot of my energy.
Safe to say, worry consumes the most of me.
Any single complain or any symptom expressed races to my brain, shakes my comfort and initiates worry, paranoia and fear.

I hope that whatever symptoms they are feeling now does not mean any severe vascular or coronary diseases as well as anything beyond heart wrenching like cancer or the like. Lord please bless us.

I seriously hope and pray that their health will continue to get better and I hope they get a better perspective when it comes to taking care of their health and seeing medical professionals if needed.

no heart attack, stroke, pvd, blood clots or anything worse please.

I hope their health becomes better and their illnesses get healed and of course, do not get worse. Let them prioritize their health and not be cynical about it.

I hope that poverty won't continue to be a barrier to effective healthcare and that medications, diagnostics, services and health benefits would not be too expensive. No man would be fit to work with an ailing body. I hope that the government seriously understands that. Subsidies and a higher budget should help create a healthier nation.

If you read this post, join me in prayer for the better health of people, for the better health of our loved ones and of course, our parents.

*don't let anything bad happen to them please.

Lazy Day :)

Lazy Day :) by ishipaye89 featuring jersey shirts

Eating in Baguio: Ketchup food community :)

well, I wrote some notable restaurants in Baguio City in a past post here.
here is an addition :)

The Ketchup Food Community


- located at Romulo Drive near Wright Park.
- This place used to be just "happy tummy" but now, its already a food community where once inside, you will see a collection of small restaurants offering different cuisines.
-I haven't memorized the names of the restos inside but some of them are
*happy tummy-- thai inspired
* Cirkulo - cafe (did not try yet)
* there is one offering western inspired dishes like pastas or the like.
*Rumah Sate - offers good food, actually where we ate. Serves Malay and Indonesian food.
*completely forgot the other one, I think they offer Filipino dishes but I am greatly unsure :)

come have a visit there and I'm sure you will be delighted ;)
btw, budget friendly prices assured! :)